Inhale, Exhale.

It's Saturday afternoon, the 25th of September and one of the most beautiful of Fall days. If I didn't know any better I would swear it was mid-August. The 3 older boys are outside with Kendal working on the car. The youngest is sleeping, for lack of better words, like a baby. I am sitting in the recliner, in a clean living room with freshly painted fingernails. Inhale, Exhale.

This day didn't start out so well. Abe was up around 6:00 a.m. and then Silas was up shortly there after. I headed to the living room with Silas after I finally soothed Abe back to sleep. Si had already turned the TV on and was comfortably lounging in previously said chair before I could even hunker down in the sofa with my magazine. Inhale, Exhale.

It was Kendal's morning to sleep in, I get Monday. We determined this last night before we closed our eyes on an okay Friday. I am not one to really sleep in. Yeah, I like to lay in bed and watch HGTV or the Food Network, but sleep, nope. One little sound after around 5:30 a.m. and I am done for. Kendal on the other hand can sleep until the sun sets the next day. Miss a whole day just laying there being unproductive and be glad for it. What a talent. How can one cast his cares into Never Never Land and not think anything of it, I will never know. Inhale, Exhale.

I can smell the sunshine, the neighbors BBQ, and they both mix with the sweet Autumn smell of a candle some good friends sent me. These smells are comforting and take me back to when I was a little girl. I can remember laying in the front yard of my parents house on a sunny, warm, windy day with a cozy blanket. I would sit on one half of the blanket and then drape the other half over my head, as to make a little pod. The smell of sunshine against the cozy smelling, freshly laundered blanket was like a warm embrace from 7 Grandmas all holding freshly baked cookies while knitting scarves, yeah, it's that good. Inhale, Exhale.

Kendal prepared lunch because I said, " I just can't do one more meal right now." He made a fancy assortment of Peanut Butter and honey. Fancy because Jonah has gluten-free bread, and the honey he used was some fancy blackberry stuff. Yep, we are fancy aren't we? While Kendal was busy in the kitchen I laid on the floor like a lazy cat. Me and Abe just pinched, poked and pulled on each other. He more than I. My hair was fixed this morning. It now has all fallen to the sides of my face with just the back in a bun. I now have on a headband and have called it a day. Inhale, Exhale.

Have you noticed anything about this entry? Besides not having much of a point, I'm sure you have noticed that I have just rambled on. I ramble on because I have nothing important to say. I will say this though; I have not mentioned my pain once. Because I don't have much. If we were to put it in percentages, I would say it is 85% gone. A normal day for me is that my pain is between a 5 and 8 on a pain scale. Today, a 2. I worked hard in the yard yesterday...I should be feeling it today. I don't. I have not taken anything for pain in 24 hours. This seems to be a record of sorts. I can't help but well up a bit. I am timid in sharing this because my personality is such that I wonder when the pain will come back. But this is something I will share, in this moment, I thank Jesus for relief. Inhale, Exhale.

It is Saturday, the 24th of September. The sun is shining, my boys are out basking in it, the fragrance in the air is comforting, my living room is clean, my nails are pretty, and my husband is out of bed :) And I get to enjoy it all because my focus is not on getting rid of my pain, fighting my pain, thinking about my pain. My focus for today is on enjoying life for what it is. So this is what it's like? I've missed you. Inhale, Exhale.